Hey Y'all! It's been a LONG time...

It's been a long time since I "felt" like I could share on a blog.

First of all my emotions were a tangly mess the last two thirds of the year last year, and the first third of this one. I'm not real sure they're a whole lot better, but I've felt the need to express myself lately. Secondly, the Busyness reigned, and if it was knocked off the throne, it was by Tiny Short Little Bouts of Depression. Thankfully the joy that I have in Christ wins. :)

Since September of last year, I have lost one of the dearest friends that I have ever had. She is irreplacable and it has been a trial to be without her. I have much comfort in knowing that she is right where her heart wanted to be. :) I have also lost one of the best grandmothers ever born. After an almost four year battle with cancer, her little body finally succumbed and she and my friend, "T", are rejoicing in heaven together.

The losses, and maybe the fact that my birth children are all almost grown now, has left me wondering what I will do with my days. What will I think when I look back on my life if I'm blessed to live another ten or twenty years? Will I be pleased with the way my days were spent? Will I regret not doing this or that? How will these five children and grandchildren view what I have chosen?

I know that growing up I was very blessed to have had attentive parents and attentive grandparents. My paternal grandmother spent lots of time investing in our lives. She had 16 grnadchildren and I think we all thought we were her favorite. She passed a love of nature, gardening, sewing, canning and sitting still down to me. She made sure I had a way to church if my parents weren't going and she let me sit with her and play with her veins during church. HAHAHAHAHA! My sibs and my cousins will all know what I mean. :)

My maternal grandmother (that went home in March) worked five days a week throughout most of my childhood but still made time for us. She had the most encouraging words for us EVERY time we saw her. She was our biggest cheerleader in the everyday. She had such a wonderful sense of humor and laughed so easily...and her laugh...Ah. To hear her laugh just once more would be so bliss.

One of my cousins had the opportunity (and the foresight) to video her and was just saying this morning how she watches it just to hear her laugh again. :)

These are the things I want my children and grandchildren to remember about Maw/Moma/Me. I want them to know that they are more than worth my time and energy and that I'm their biggest fan. I want to pass on a love for the good things in life and show them the violets in the spring. I want to teach them to value the little things God gives. May I be so blessed.


I hope to change the format of the blog to less of a place to journal and more of a place to teach some sewing techniques and maybe some other "farm related" skills. :) Whilst I teach I will also be learning.

I hope you are blessed by my ramblings and encouraged each day to invest in the lives of those you love.